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Thursday, April 8, 2010

What A Difference A Day Makes

Yesterday, I felt as if the world was pressing in on me. I couldn’t define it very well. Part of it was having too long a to do list and feeling as if I was running out of time. But that didn’t explain the sadness or maybe it was anxiety. Usually, I am able to take a few moments, look inside my heart and identify what the heck it is I am feeling. Believe me, Chuck really appreciates when I can do that! It’s much better than pulling a Laura Petrie and crying “Oh Rob...” as I run out of the room! But yesterday, I just had the overpowering urge to hold my hands up, palms out, as if trying to shield myself or ward off that world which felt as if it was closing in.

By the time dinnertime rolled around, I was feeling more normal. Today, I woke feeling much better, perkier - heck, downright chipper. My to do list was still too long, the clock still running too fast, but I just didn’t feel as worried or stressed. Weird. Yesterday was summery hot. Today was pleasantly cool. Could that have been it? Maybe the heat was a factor, but it wouldn’t explain the whole thing. One niggling worry in the back of my mind is, well, er, you know “That Which Shall Not Be Named”. I’ll be turning 52 soon and I hear that emotional ups and downs are part of that whole “transition”.

Nah... I’m going with the heat.
That’s my story and I’m sticking to it!

6 comments:

Roo said...

It's the heat, although throwing your hands in the air, whilst clattering dishes and running out to sob with the chickens (a la any cowboy musical) is also a good ploy to get that new outfit.. works for me..although it costs a fortune in broken crockery, and the neighbours are sick of me getting their chickens wet..... ;o)

dancingmorganmouse said...

It's the heat, it does it to me too (as you know), so glad it's lifed. As for that other thing, my sisters in law, sinister & dexter, both 44 this hear, already hit them!

dancingmorganmouse said...

this YEAR, not hear. I was giggling too much over the thought of roo in a frilly pinny dashing out of the kitchen and getting the chickens wet :)

Pink Granite said...

Hi Roo -
I love the image!
Twice in two comments we're laughing out loud! You're batting 1000 sir - and yes that is a very good thing!
;o)


Hi Morgan -
Knowing that S & D are already in the midst of TWSNBN has induced an overwhelming sense of schadenfreude! I am officially a very, very bad person!
;o)
- Lee

dancingmorganmouse said...

Lee, bad you may be but you have some great company :)

Roo said...

I second that.. must dash, pinny needs ironing..again!

PS... Lee, did you know that you usually have the coolest words come up on the word verification thing? Today's is syncouse.. which makes me think of synchronised Scottish cows...